The Weight of it all...

Confession time. I’ve never been comfortable with my weight. I know it is something that many women struggle with, but even when I was smaller, I was uncomfortable with myself. After I got pregnant, my focus had to change from losing weight to not losing/gaining. It has been the hardest thing about this pregnancy so far. The funny thing is, I’m easily eating 300-400 more calories than I was, but I have yet to gain any weight. In fact, so far, I’ve lost 8 pounds and I still haven’t gained those back. I’ll admit I was a little overweight to start and apparently my body can function and grow a baby without the extra weight, but I don’t want to hurt the baby. I’m eating foods that are super healthy and I’m skipping out on things that are not. (Though I did have a few bites of ice cream last night but that’s loaded with calcium, right?) When I want a little chocolate, I have ONE kiss or miniature chocolate bar. Literally, one. At my 19 week ultrasound, the baby was measuring a little ahead, so I know he’s getting what he needs. Because the baby is okay, and I’m not gaining weight like I thought I was going to, I’m going to try harder not to focus on weight. It is just not the best frame of mind for me. Instead, I’m focusing on eating what my baby needs and developing better eating habits for after the baby comes. If I can get the eating better part down, the (currently non-existent) baby weight shouldn’t be a burden or too much of one.

Its a boy!!

We found out today that we are having a boy! Name issue mainly solved! The middle name is a little up in the air, but I think we know where we're going with it.

Everyone kept telling me that it would feel more real when we found out the sex, but I don't know. It doesn't feel more real, it still feels odd and well, scary!

I'm happy we are having a boy, but I would be just as happy if we were having a girl. However, I'm very happy not worrying about the girl name now.

The Name Game

I love my husband, he is so cute. How many guys do you know that has had a boy name picked out since he was a teenager? The issue is the girl name. We don't find out what the sex is until January and I'm stuck between two names. We have a middle name, but we really like Emma and Abigail equally. The other issue is that they are both really popular names right now and that can be hard for kids when they know tons of people with their name.

I'm officially putting all name talks on hold until after January 12th.

Recently, we have got so many questions from friends and family wanting to know how we knew we were pregnant and if we were trying. The answers to those questions are, we didn’t know and we weren’t trying!

We were preventing, but certain symptoms led us to take a pregnancy test. My mild flu like symptoms, the odd car sickness, and the general “not feeling like myself”. I was certain that I wasn’t, but after I was five days late, I knew I had to at least see. Eugene had drill and was in the shower upstairs. I didn’t even tell him I was going to take a test. (From us talking about it, he was pretty sure I wasn’t either.) I went in, took the test, and it turned positive…in all of thirty seconds. I left it on the sink for him to see when he shaved. He came downstairs and starting getting his stuff together to shave. He didn’t see the test when he started running water, or when he started to wet his face. He saw it when he looked down to grab his shaving cream. He started shouting (and I do mean shouting), “have you SEEN this? Honey, have you seen THIS?” I started crying and said yes. It’s not that I wasn’t happy about being pregnant, but I knew from that moment on, our lives were changing and we would never get back these care free, do what we want moments again.

In general, he is a bit more excited than I am (I’m sure that will change though), but he also doesn’t have something lying on his bladder all day. So, he can be excited, I’ll wait until this nausea passes and then I’ll make up my mind.

A bit of a surprise

My husband and family can't keep a secret so here it goes. Gene and I are expecting a baby! No, we weren't trying, this is a huge shock. We are due in June and our first appointment is November 6th (I think).

This brings on so many new issues and I'm worried. I'm a planner and I didn't plan this. Plus, I don't feel pregnant, I feel fine. Though, I'm not sure what pregnant feels like. I'm excited for this stage in our life, but there's so much to do. We have stuff to buy, daycare to find, and lots of other things I can't think of right now.

We are excited, but boy does this change things!